The following article was written by Anna-Stina Johansson. She is an author from Lapland, Sweden. A publishing house in Sweden published her children's book about animals in 2008 and now she is releasing these animal stories in English via her own firm, "The Storyteller from Lappland". For more info about her latest book, “Flame –The Animal Saver part one”, please visit www.lapplandstoryteller.com
“Following the Martial Arts
way is like scaling a cliff – continue upwards without rest. It demands
absolute and unfaltering devotion to the task at hand.” Sometimes I think of
this motto by Sosai Masutatsu Oyama, the founder of Kyokushin Karate, because
this motto fits indeed very well with how I experience Kyokushin. To me karate
is as precisely as hard as scaling a cliff! You see I have social phobia,
meaning I have problems with body contact and Kyokushin is a full contact
Martial Art, but it’s not only full contact when you fight but also when you do
certain exercises. Also Kyokushin Karate has been a male-dominated sport but
nowadays more women are coming to the dojos so maybe one day in the near future
it will be as many women as men there : ) That’s good for me because I’m scared
of men since someone I’m acquainted with got stalked and raped and I got very
affected by that event.
Anyway, once we were
training self-defense in the dojo and that was why I started to train karate. I
can’t remember now how I pictured it would be, but I certainly probably never
imagined the exercise my head instructor told me to do with a man there when I
recently had started to train back in the fall of 2010. He showed us first with
one of the other students how you should do the exercise. That one was supposed
to lie on the back on the floor while the other one was going to sit on top of
his tummy, grabbing the person who was lying in his Gi (the karate clothes) and
pretending to hit him with the other hand. The person who was lying was going
to pull up his knee and move his hip upwards and push away the other person in
order to get away.
The clock was around 9:00 pm,
the lessons normally ended that time, when the head instructor asked one of the
other men if he could do that exercise with me and of course he answered yes. I
thought that I was going to die when I realized what I had to do! Since the
clock was so much maybe I thought that he was just showing, not that we
actually had to do it! But I endured and did that exercise with a man I hardly
knew. After all, that was what brought me to the dojo in the first place, to
learn how to physically protect myself and in order to do that I know that I
must step outside my comfort zone. By the way, if feels like I do that all the
time when I’m in the dojo : ) Later I understood that the instructor had asked
me in a nice way if I was willing to do that exercise. I guess I was too
nervous or too scared to get it, that he actually had wondered if it was okay
for me. I misunderstood him so that was why I agreed to do that exercise with a
stranger. People say it’s easy to misunderstand each other if you send texts or
emails but it’s easy to misunderstand a person in real life too : )
Kyokushin is also the
strongest karate in the world. I have an eating disorder that I try to get well
from so I’m not strong. It feels like I don’t have any strength at all in my
legs and there are lots of exercises where you have to have leg strength to be
able to do them correctly, but I think that mine has vanished. I guess I should
eat more spinach so I get as strong as Popeye : )
I’m glad that I’m a person
that does not give up in the first try because otherwise I would have been long
gone by now. Then I guess I would have left the dojo and never looked back
already after my first lesson. Everything was so new and difficult for me! The
instructors talk Japanese when they tell us which techniques you should do. I
got confused right away when I heard those strange words! At my first lesson my
instructor told us to do sit-ups and count to ten on Japanese while we did
that.
When I heard the others
count one by one while we did this exercise, I started to feel desperate trying
to remember the words on the papers that I had gotten a couple of days earlier
when I went there to just watch them train. I wondered if I was supposed to
have learned all that stood there in such a short space of time! Eventually it
was my turn to count. “Ichi, Ni, San, Shi…” I think that that was the only
numbers I had managed to learn back then. Then the instructor said that I could
say the rest in Swedish but it felt like I had forgotten my own language too
since I don’t like to talk in front of others : )
And one of the exercises we
had to do then was to stand on your hands. You know when you stand upside down
with the legs against another person’s outspread arm. First of all you must trust
the other person if you are going to do that and I find it hard to trust
people. Second you must be strong. I didn’t wear a Gi since you can train in
ordinary clothes when you are a beginner, so I put my jumper inside my
trousers, meaning I looked like Steve Urkel : ) because I had no intention to
show my tummy there : ) I did my best but I didn’t manage to do that exercise,
I felt like a worthless twerp : )
Despite all my problems I continued
to go to the dojo. Later I let the instructors know about my problems and they
haven’t shown me anything else but understanding and kindness : ) Since
Kyokushin can be hard to train at times I believe that many can get the feeling
of giving up when the feet start to hurt, the knuckles bleed and when the body
is sore from the hard training. I believe the key to continue training is to
have the right motivation. I wouldn’t have trained karate if I just wanted to
stay healthy, then I would have chosen some easier training like walking or
jogging. What motivates me is that I want to be able to defend myself so
therefore I still train Kyokushin. I managed to earn my blue belt (8 kyu) just
before Christmas 2011. Here in Sweden you can only take the karate test if you
have trained at least three months and taken part in at least 25 classes. When
it comes to higher grades there are stricter rules. As far as the technical
standard Sweden is far ahead.
I think I have become
addicted to Kyokushin since I use to train here at home by myself. Then my cats
watch me sometimes and it’s almost like having an instructor watching you
because they follow every move I do : )